Trees

Times Square

Pavilion


Sunway Pyramid


My house

Wishing all my friends a merry merry X'mas!
and a
Happy New Year!

Choppy,
-Wishful-

Birthday

Woke up at 10:30am by a mysterious phone call, asked me to come out of the house. Scramble out of the bed unwillingly - after sleeping only 5 hours - to see a familiar kancil outside my house. Step outside, chit-chat for awhile at the door and then, as she always do, surprise me again with a plastic bag. Got me speechless.

Unexpected...

Open see inside....


My wish came true lee...happy family !

Really touched by her. Amazing how she understands people so well. She really remembers everything others tell her. Feeling a slight guilt because she did so much for me but I had helped her so little. I don't think I could ever met another better friend. Really glad to have met you! Thanks for making today one of my best birthdays ^^

After that, start cleaning my room. Exam over already, means its time to get rid of those books. In the process, I found ...

RM 250 hidden in my drawer! Haha, this means more shopping! ^^

As you can see, piles of books waiting to be burned, wahaha ( Dear environmentalist, I'm just kidding, I pledge that these papers will b turned into useful toilet papers ^^ )

Went to Osaka with my brother for lunch, freaking spent RM 40++ , haha but who cares? Its me-day =)

Having my favorite, tempura tenzaru soba hehe~

Anyway, it was a great day today. Later still got dinner with family and movie with friends, weee~ Ah, not forgetting to thanks to those who spam my phone too with tons of wishes. Back at ya'll!

Choppy,
-Touched-
-Excited-

Inconsiderate

I was pretty depressed yesterday after my Maths 2 paper and it was surprising to see how inconsiderate some people can be. As though I wasn't sad enough, when I said I did badly, 1 person actually said " Wow, then we got chance to get A liao loh? "

I guess it's ok if you kept this thought in your mind because I would never know since I'm no mind-reader but seriously, did you have to spit it out? Right after the exam? Seriously?!

Of course, you could be joking but don't you think it was not the right moment? It's like when you attend a funeral and you tell the family members " Cheer up, the world needs to feed 1 person less now." =.= Come onnnnnnnnnn. You know who you are.

Ok, I might be over-exaggerating. One of those emo moments again, I suppose. Don't worry, I'll get over it, somehow. Bah.

p.s. Thanks to friends who consoled me. No thanks to people who did not even try. Even those I was close too, well at least I thought we were.

Choppy,
-Emo-

Chionggg!

This is the last chance to make our mark
History will know who we are!
This is the last game so make it count, it's
Now or Never

STPM starts in 2 days.

Wish all my friends all the best!

Pray hard, think smart. Let the games begin.

Choppy,
-Determined-

Graduation

I have a confession to make. I've been trying to say this for a very long time. Since it's graduation day today, there is no better time to spill the beans than now. Ready or not, here goes ...

I hate my friends.

I hate how we turn from strangers to the best of friends in just 1 year and 6 months.
I hate that I'll miss all the times we've spent laughing together till our stomachs cramped.
I hate all the gossips and secrets we share with each other because I probably wouldn't receive anymore updates.
I hate to be in the same class with all you guys because now it will all just be memories.
I hate all the times we've spent together because now we will all depart on our own ways and never look back.
I hate how much I loved all of you guys, each in a different way.

And I hate how my tears flow while trying to post this entry.

Screw graduation day. How I wished this day would never come .. then I don't have to hate all of you. It's tiring.

Choppy,
-depressed-

Yippee!

High School Musical 3 is coming to town ... TOMORROW! This is so exciting ~~~ I don't think I can sleep tonight! xD

Choppy,
-Excited-

Lost

MPPTE just ended today and it's really mind-boggling to see how time flies so quickly. Anyway, lots of room for improvement on today's MPPTE, and hopefully the new board of MTE can learn from their mistakes this time and perform better in future events. All the best to them.

38 days till STPM. 38. Are you f***ing serious?!

It's 2am now and I can't believe I'm trying to post an entry. Shouldn't I be snoring away? Well, I can't. And it's because of this guilt that is bugging me. No, I did not commit a crime or anything but ... let's recap what I was doing for the past few hours. Tv. Youtube. Tv. Hmm, can't seem to find 'study' in the list. Oh, did I mention STPM is just 38 days away?

This is just preposterous! Now, I'm feeling more lost than season 3 of Heroes and extreme disappointment with myself. I can't even think straight now.

Bah, hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. Procrastination, please stay away from me.

Choppy,
-lost-
-disappointed-

Pokemon

Pokemon is back! And it's taking High School Klang by storm - well, at least in 6A2 it is. It is unbelievable that in the midst of exam, everybody is once again addicted to Pokemon! Extreme pressure? Probably. Anyway, almost everybody is playing Pokemon through their cellphones now except for, well, me =( And that's only because I do not have a decent phone that supports Pokemon. I hope I can get a new mobile soon and start my Pokemon adventure as well~ Can't wait! =D

Gotta catch 'em all~ P-O-K-E-M-O-N!

Choppy,
-Excited-

Sorrow

Gloomy clouds hover above
melancholy fill the damp air
saturated not with rain drops
but tears of close family and friends
mourning for the departed

Nevertheless,
tears evaporate
and so must grief
for life goes on
only memories remain
to mend each wound
in every broken heart

The passing away of 2 immediate relatives in a mere 3 days have proved to be a very difficult time, especially for the relatives on my father's side.

May the departed souls be relieved from suffering
May all family and friends be free from grief
and be well and happy
Sadhu. Sadhu. Sadhu.

Choppy,
Gloom

Touched

30 Hour Famine had just ended on Sunday and it was a blast! Kudos to the committee team of Tiong Hua Kok Bin DIY Famine camp for the successful event! It has been ages since I had so much fun and it was the perfect time for me to relax myself as the STPM trials approaches. I'm so glad I insisted to attend the camp even though I was 6 hours late.

Anyway, we had lots of fun especially on the night of the concert because everybody was going wild and crazy! It was as though everyone was on ecstasy and just kept screaming and jumping all night long! Another memorable part was during the final 4-hour countdown party at Bukit Jalil. At first, we were reluctant to go down to the field as it was blazing hot but we couldn't bare to see the field so empty. When all of a sudden, 1 hour later, it started raining freaking heavily. So, we just partied under the rain for 3 hours non-stop! It was awesome! But of course, we had our raincoats on, prepared by the committee team ( another great planning by the committees, bravo! ) and it was my first time wearing a raincoat, haha.

My team was great too - the Piggie team! 8 people in total and 6 of them are from High School's Lower 6 while another boy is from Kwang Hua. It was a great chance to know them better because I wasn't close to any of them before in High School. We had lots of fun fooling around and snapping lots and lots of picture. My team also contributed the most in the charity sales! We spent more than Rm100 on the bookmarks for sale and the prize was Luo Yise's autograph CD and Jam Xiao's autograph! We gave the CD to our leader since he spent the most. And I was so touched when they decided to give me the limited Jam Xiao's autograph!

I was really surprised and touched because I barely knew them for few hours and they decided to give me this priceless gift ( I almost cried but I did not, haha ) I feel blessed that everybody treat me so well.

People have got to stop trying to make me cry, lol.

p/s Sorry for the limited pictures because I did not bring my camera there. Have to wait till I get them from my group mate.

Choppy,
-Touched-

Walk

I had a long walk today.

10:30 am : I walked from St John KPS Headquarter to La Salle school just to find a bus stop. I don't know what happened to the bus stop in front of the Headquarter.

11:30 am : I walked from the Klang Central Bus Station to High School. Boon Kai said he wanted to have group study last night so I did not take the bus home. On my way walking to High School, he text me and said he woke up late so the study plan is canceled. Bummer.

1:00 pm : I walked from High School to Klang Parade to meet my cousin so he could fetch me home. I planned to stay in the library till 4pm so that I can attend the Fiesta straight away which starts at 6pm. Suddenly, the librarian turned off the air-conditioner and said they are closing at 1pm. Sad.

Thankfully it was a cloudy day with slight breezes. It was quite relaxing too to have a long walk alone. Except for the heavy backpack and the dangerous traffic part.

Choppy,
-Tired-

Moody

I cried in class today, twice, and I guessed nobody noticed, thankfully. Well, I don't know if that is considered crying but 2 tear drops did came rolling out of a sudden and I had to rub it off straight away. Once was right in the middle of Maths period and another was right after Chemistry.

I don't what is happening to me today but this has got to be the lowest feeling I've ever felt for a very very long time. Maybe I'm just too tired or stress is really hitting me hard now, I don't know. Life too difficult? Probably.

Anyway, I came home and slept for 4 hours and feeling a slight headache now. Hopefully this emo cloud would soon disperse.

Life goes on ... Gambatte choppy!

p/s Thanks to Boon Kai for sending me home right after school even though he had to rush for his MP.

Choppy,
-Moody-

Batman

Ok, the title says it all, this post is about the latest Batman movie, The Dark Knight.

Now the question is 'Have you watched it?' If not, please bang your head against the wall. No wait, make that 3 times, thanks.

Ok, I'm being stupid here but I just can't resist the awesomeness of Batman! I must admit that I did not watch the previous movies of Batman ( maybe I had a glimpse, I forgot ) but that doesn't matter because most importantly this recent sequel rocks! I have read some bad criticisms on the movie but its not that I care anyway since its their own opinion. Besides, if the movie is that bad, it wouldn't have break countless box office records ( even Titanic's! *gasp* ) Heath Ledger's tragedy might have provided some publicity but I don't think that's a pertinent factor.

Speaking of the late Heath Ledger, I felt that he portrayed The Joker marvelously. I have to say Joker is one of the most disturbing characters I've ever seen ( Well, maybe not to most of you out there because I've never seen any horror movies in the cinema before or anywhere else, lol, FYI ) *Warning spoiler ahead* And my favourite part of the movie was when both ships decided not to kill each other. IMO, That was a nice touch of goodness in a totally emo-fied movie.


In conclusion, its an awesome movie to watch and I'm sorry Yichun, but I have to say it again, 'he is much cooler than your Optimus Prime', haha.

With great power comes great responsibility....no wait, that's spiderman, lol.

p/s : On a completely different note, the Beijing Olympics 2008 Opening Ceremony was absolutely spectacular! Go China!

Choppy,
-Approbative-

Appreciate

I'm officially back in the world of blogging!

Anyway, I don't really have anything to say but I guess I'll post something for the sake of posting. Well, as most of you would have known, I'm back from the 39th International Physics Olympiad in Hanoi, Vietnam just 3 days ago. And I'm still missing it!

Just so you know, my ranking is 206 out of 376 students from 82 countries all over the world. Not that bad, huh? After that gruelling theory paper which I scored only 3/30, who would have expected me to even win an Honorable Mention? For a person like me who had not expected much from myself, to win something in this IPhO is truly a dream come true. Well, I'm very satisfied with my performance and hopefully I did not let any of my friends or family down.

Ok, in order not to make this another lengthy post, I'll summarize Vietnam in 2 words; Wild and Beautiful.
Wild as in the crazy traffic that never stops! In Vietnam, people stop for the cars and not the cars(motorcycles too) stop for you, not even when you are using the zebra crossing! Vietnamese utilize their car horns very well too. It's like everybody is getting married everyday and the horns just go berserk everywhere you go. And did I mention that their traffic lights are mere roadside decorations?
Beautiful faces and beautiful places. That's right. It's hard not to notice how pretty Vietnamese girls are! It's surprising that in the period of 10 days when I'm there, I only noticed 1 plump girl and everybody else looks like sticks, even aunties! GK even said that if you throw a pebble in a random direction, chances of hitting a pretty girl is so darn high! Of course, I must say Vietnamese have beautiful hearts too as they were very friendly and provided great hospitality for each participants. Aww, I miss my guide Linh so much! And Vietnam is a beautiful place too. The picturesque sceneries at Halong Bay and Trang-An Eco-tourism Park are really breathtaking! I'm sorry I couldn't provide any pictures now because my camera has been sent for repair. It'll be back in 3 weeks, sigh. Unless I can dig out my card reader..but you know me, I'm lazy, haha.

Anyway, I miss everything about IPhO! I miss the midnight chat with the Australian team, I miss Sebastian and Fabio from Liechenstein who were hilarious and the Irish, Macau and Brunei team that were so friendly!

In conclusion, this trip to Vietnam is really an eye-opening and amazing experience that is one of the best times in my life, if not best! I'll definitely treasure all the great memories and the souvenirs from all my new found friends. I'm offered to go for the selection again for IPhO 2009 which will be held at Mexico(sounds like fun haha) but I'll need to think about it.

Well, now that everything is back to normal, I'll have to buckle up and prepare for my trials which is in 1 month. I need to make sure I'm no longer in my holiday mood and be fully prepared for STPM. Speaking of STPM, Upper 6 will be over in .. hmm, 4 months? Which means I must appreciate all the times I have left with all my friends ... I really can't imagine what would happen on our last day of school. I'll most probably cry, FYI.

swt, the whole post turned out lengthy in the end...bah,wth.

p/s :
1. A great thanks to my classmates for organizing that mini party to welcome us back. Really appreciate it! ^^
2. Congratulations to Uncle Charisma on his new blog! Haha

Choppy,
-Nostalgic-

Leaving

Well, I'll be leaving for UKM today after school and we'll be heading straight to Hanoi, Vietnam on Sunday. We'll be back on the 30th, which means I'll be exactly 2 weeks absent from school. This is actually the first time I'm going to be away from home for more than a week and it's been really difficult for me. Not to mention the excessive pressure from the high expectations of people around me, I'm absolutely emotionally and mentally stressed out.

However, I'm very grateful to be surrounded by a circle of close friends who are concerned about me and have been very encouraging. I know its only a mere 2 weeks but I'm seriously going to miss each and every one of you. Thanks so much for all the well wishes and the blessings.

Thanks to Pn. Lim for working so hard to manage our trip to Hanoi. It must have been very difficult, especially with the self-centered and inconsiderate principal around. Thanks for your generous contribution for our taxi fare to UKM and your hard effort to find sponsors for our trip.

Thanks to Yichun for being very concerned about me and my preparations for this trip. I can feel that you really do treat me as your real younger brother. Please do take care too while I'm not around for these 2 weeks ^^

Thanks to my Kai ma for her very special gift. I'm honestly touched when you handed me that cute lil doll flown all the way from Korea, my tears almost came out, haha. I swear that I'll keep it for the rest of my life. I'm glad there's something to remind me of you while I'm at Vietnam, hehe. So lucky to be your Kai Cai ^^


Thanks to Uncle Charisma for taking your time to make me that short testimonial in friendster. Very 'gan dong' leh ^^

Thanks a lot again to everybody. May we meet again in 2 weeks time. Ciaoz. T_T


p.s. Anybody that has free time please do not hesitate to phone me, haha. And before I sign off, how do I look?Kai ma says I look more mature, haha, which is a good thing. Too bad I will not have the chance to attend High School's Prom Night in this suit =(


Choppy,
-Touched-

Blood...

Yay! I donated my blood for the first time yesterday! I am so freaking proud of myself! ^^ ( Sorry for the 'self-siok', haha) And the best thing is I'm not even 18 yet! ( No, I did not lie to the nurse about my age, I've got parents permission, FYI ) So, shame on those people who are already 18 and yet have no guts to donate their oh-so-precious blood *wink* =P

Venue : High School, Klang
Date : 12 July 2008

Time : 10:30 am

Peace! ^^

My Blood......cool!

Ok, I admit I was freaking darn terrified and nervous when I arrived at the hall. Everyone was like saying how pale I looked and my blank reactions when they talk to me, lol. Oh well, it was my first, so I guess its normal to be scared. But everything turned out fine and it didn't really hurt that much, trust me, Kar Hing's pinch is much worse than the needle, haha.

Anyway, I'm pretty disappointed though because my Kai ma and Uncle Charisma said they would be there but they didn't turn out =( Ok, Uncle Charisma did came about 30 minutes after I was done donating. Oh well, I heard he was busy flirting with Siau Man xD Busy flirting yet no guts to donate, sad =.=

I would like to say thanks to
- Boon Kai for being there to chat with me and taking photos, although he too didn't donate because he was too afraid of the needle =.=
- my junior, Lih Yan who was practically there just to nag me and complain how slow my blood is filling the pack and she too did not donate because she was obviously underweight, haha. She might not even have enough blood for herself xD
- Wooi Seng for accompanying me and chatting with me before I went to donate so that I was not that nervous. Another one that didn't donate for god-knows-what-reason =P
- Chen Huat who was donating his blood right next to me and talking all those nonsense to distract me. I felt bad when he got scolded by the nurse because he was disturbing me when the nurse was about to inject the needle =( He was just trying to distract me from the needle though...
- Aunty Kwee Ping for her concern and encouragement ^^ Too bad she didn't donate because she was also afraid of the needle.

Anyway, it was a great experience. There's no doubt that I will be donating again in the future because it feels so great to able to save life. So to whoever out there who is still a blood-donation-virgin, stop being a sissy and start donating!

Serve for Mankind.

p.s. My blood type is A.

Choppy,
-Proud-

Thoughts

天黑黑 欲落雨

天黑黑 黑黑...

I'm home alone again today and its raining quite heavily outside...

Rain; I like it when its raining. It's always so peaceful and serene on rainy days. It's rather ironic but I do think that the rain provides a comforting silence for me. I can't really explain it, maybe its the constant rhythm of the rain drops or the silent breeze that accompanies it, it really does create a soothing environment perfect for thoughts.

More often than not, as I lie on my comfy bed listening to the soft thuds of the rain drops, my mind starts to wonder aimlessly. As my mind begins its journey from the past to the present and to the future, questions of all sorts begin to pop like mushrooms. Questions that are sometimes foolish, joyful, regrettable and many times haunting.

What if I didn't accept the PTS offer during Standard 3?
What if I had transferred to Kwang Hua during Form 1?
What if I were offered a scholarship after SPM?
What if I had stayed in STAR for Form 6?
What if I were sent to 6B1 on my 1st day in High School?
What if I had fail to be selected for IPHO?
What if I obtain a discouraging result for STPM and fails to enter any public Unievrsity?
What if I were a Christian, Muslim or any other religion?
What if I were dead?

I know it's pointless to wander on things that were done in the past and things in the future that only time will tell. But nevertheless, these 'what if' questions are always so alluring because it allows the mind to run free. Sigh, so many questions yet so limited answers...

下起雨 也要勇敢前进

我相信 一切都会平息

我现在 好想回家去...

Choppy,
-Wandering-

Self Reliance

I last heard this song almost 5 years ago. I only heard it once but I remembered it till today and I'm so lucky to be able to hear it again when I stumble upon it on Youtube. A short but very meaningful song.

By ourselves is evil done.
By ourselves we pain endure.
By ourselves we cease from wrong.
By ourselves become we pure.

No one saves us but ourselves.
No one can and no one may.
We ourselves must walk the path.
Buddhas merely show the way.

Choppy,
-Touched-

Excited

I'm always excited with things that are... not really exciting. I mean, I'm easily excited with things that does not amuse anyone else. And most of the time I don't even realize that I'm feeling excited until one of my friends ask me 'Why am I so excited?' Lol. Example of a few things that thrills me but never seem to amuse anyone else :

1. I recently met this boy that totally looks like a small kid during Orientation Week.It's obvious I'm referring to the guy in the middle right? Doesn't he just look like 12?! I got excited since I saw him on the first day of OW and I started going around telling everybody about this little boy. Lol. And he has got a funny name too, Lau Vern Tze ( Direct translation = Old Mosquito ) Lol. (Sorry Vern Tze if you are reading this but I don't mean to make fun of your name) Besides that, he also runs around the hall bare-footed because according to him, he can't wear socks because his leg will start to sweat and get itchy. So I'm always looking at this kid that runs around bare-footed, which is absolutely hilarious. Lol. I'm so glad to announce that I no longer look the most kid-ish in High School Klang.

But there's 1 thing that bugs me though... he's taller than me. Sigh.

2. 7-11 is coming to town! .... It's true, 7-11 is coming to Taman Berkeley! Boon Kai was fetching me to tuition yesterday and I suddenly saw a group of people hanging the 7-11 board on one of the empty shop lots. I was like so freaking excited because I would have never expected a 7-11 in Taman Berkeley. Then Boon Kai suddenly ask me 'Why am I so excited?' I had no idea how to answer, lol. I guess I expected 7-11 to be available only in urban areas, which means Berkeley is now officially advanced! But Taman Eng Aun has a 7-11 too ... hmm ...

3. I get excited each time I see a squirrel in High School, even though I've seen them before countless times before. I guess I'm the only student in High School to feel excited. But isn't it exciting to be able to see a squirrel in town? Who knows they might be the next Chipmunks .... cold.

So, you see my life is pretty exciting, well at least for me it is. Haha. Even typing this post on all these things excites me. Lol.

Choppy,
-Still Excited-

Experiments

Things that keep me entertained in the training camps in UKM besides watching tv and sleeping :

Finding the value of Planck's constant.

I got some stupid value that is way off the real value =.=

No idea what this experiment is about, lol

Calculating the value of Magnetic Braking Force

Something about Torque and Springs...lol

I think this has something to do with photoresistor...hmm

Something to do with refraction gratings

And the best was this levitating magnet!!

In conclusion, I am still freaking blur with all the experiments, which means I'm so not prepared for IPHO. But hey, when you get to play with experimens normally done by 2nd year degree students, who's complaining? Haha.

Choppy,

-Excited-

Next

Looking at the Lower 6 reminds me of the day when I first stepped into High School Klang, alone. I had no friends, no one to talk to in this Form 6 community so densely populated by Kwang Hua-ians. It was a totally different environment compared to La Salle. I was absolutely doubtful of my decision to transfer to High School from STAR during the first few weeks because I was so worried I would not blend in. I still remembered my first day where I lined up in the last row and the first few people who talked to me were Hock Song and Chen Hong. Haha. New faces, new language, and a whole new world so alien yet somehow so alluring.

But I have indeed come a long way since the fist day I stepped in. It maybe a mere 1 year period in High School but I feel that I've learned and gained so much. From MTE Telematch, MPPTE, Fiesta de Luna, Sports Day and recently OW, it has been a truly enjoyable roller coaster ride that I will never forget. And not to mention the friendship bond that were formed along the way. I'm glad I've met so many people who taught me so much and they definitely made an impact in my life. I maybe lonely 1 year ago but now I'm lucky to be surrounded by a circle of close friends that I can talk and laugh with.

It's sad to know that our time together will not last long, approximately 5 more months before we depart in our own way. Sigh, I guess history is going to repeat itself like it was in Form 5. But I'm glad I've walked this path with you guys and hope to cherish every moment of it while the road is still clear and wide. Thanks for making me who I am today.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. -The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost

Anyway, now that OW is over, I guess its all back to studies again. It felt like it was only few days ago when we were all so excited for OW but now its actually over. It's amazing how time flies in a blink of an eye. Oh well, what's next for us? Only time will tell...

Choppy,
-Wondering-

Mixed

How do we know we exist?
Maybe we don't ...
- Vivi, Final Fanatsy IX

Sometimes, I feel that my life is so empty, especially at night when I'm lying in bed all alone. Why do most people like to lock themselves in their room? When I'm in my room I feel so lonely. This reminds me of my first St John youth camp, where I sat down with 4 of my group members under the stars and we chatted about almost everything till 4am. Ahh! I miss that time so much! I think my greatest joy is to sit in the outdoors with 2-3 close friends and chat the whole night... at the beach or some other place that is quiet. Don't even know if I'll ever haf the chance again ... Haha, the silly dream of choppy ..

Anyway, I do agree with Yichun that friends really do just come and go. Who would truly appreciate what a friend is willing to do for another? Sigh, which reminds me that we're about to graduate in 5 more months ... Why do all good things come to an end ?

Oh well, I'm leaving for the physics camp again tomorrow and I think that is why I'm feeling all moody and emotional. I'm so exhausted with everything that is coming so fast. My 1 week holiday is going to end just like that. While my friends enjoy at Sunway, I'll be stuck at UKM. Arghhh, I feel like cursing! Life sux ...

Choppy,
-Emotionally and Physically Exhausted-

IPHO

I'm going for the International Physics Olympiad at Hanoi, Vietnam! Wee~

Wish me luck!

Choppy,
-Excited-

Video

Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers!

However, with that said, I don't think I'll be talking on the good qualities of a teacher or whatsoever-boring-stuffs. Instead, I'll be doing something new today for my blog, which is posting videos on performances for High School's Teacher's Day celebration! This is going to be my first post with videos and I hope you guys will enjoy them!

It's showtime!

First-up is Para-Para Sakura

Behind the Scenes of Jing-Wu-Men

The much-anticipated Jing-Wu-Men

FYI, the 6 of them are now superstars in High School.

The End.

p.s. A random video in Pizza Hut after school, lol. I look funny. xD

Choppy,

-Excited-

Friends

I miss my La Salle friends
I love my High School friends
I can't wait to meet new friends from Lower 6

Choppy,
-Nostalgic-

Phobia

Admit it, everyone has phobias, be it height, snakes, the dark or the paranormal. But believe it or not, I think I might just be ball-phobic.

Yes, as ridiculous as it may sound, I think that I am, to an extent, afraid of balls. In fact, any balls you can name; basketball, football, volleyball, as long as it is spherical, I'm scared. Ok, maybe 'scared' is a lil' exaggerated, 'avoid' would be more appropriate for my condition. It seems that whenever I join a game that involves ball-passing, 80% of the time you will see me avoiding the ball as though we're playing durian-passing.

So, I guess this is why I was never obsessed with any sports that requires a ball ( well, not that I'm any good in other sports either) Of course, other factors such as slow reaction time, etc also contribute to my lack of ability to engage in ball sports well but ultimately, I feel that the main reason is still my ball-phobia.

Oh well, maybe I'm just not born for sports. Sigh, another possible talent deleted from my yet-to-discover-talents list. I should probably go find Uncle Ee Leng ( pro basketball and volleyball player ) on ways to overcome this weakness.

On a positive note, maybe I'll do fairly well in dodgeball. Haha.

Choppy,
-Wondering-

Talent VS Hardwork

According to Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary :

Talented - having a natural ability to do something well
Hardworking - putting a lot effort of effort into a job and doing it well

So, in words of Math, in the end,
Talented = Do something well
Hardworking = Do something well
So .... is Talented = Hardworking .. ?? Is talent equivalent to hardwork ?

Well, many people in this world insist that each and every one of us have our own talents, be it musically inclined, athletically excellent etc. But seriously, I don't seem to have one! Yes, many will say I will discoevr my talents in the future but...when? I'm 18 this year and I don't seem to excel in anything! Don't tell me that one day when I'm 50 years old and suddenly guitar becomes my forte? Preposterous.

Some people I know might say that I'm 'good' in studies but is that even considered as a talent? In my opinion, being good in studies is more about hardwork and dedication. Of course IQ might play a role or two but I don't think it has a significant role. As for me, I try rather hard to excel in my studies mainly because I don't want to fade into the society. Well you see, if I'm not talented and I don't excel in something, I'll basically just fade into the background like your Average Joe. Call me LOA or whatever but I think its important for everyone to stand out among the others in certain fields as to not vanish in this harsh society. It's relevant for everyone to make their presence known so that they will not be left out. Nobody wants to be called 'Oi'!; all of us have names , mind you people out there. In a nutshell, it's sink or swim; do or die.

Well, usually people with talents get wider attention compared to the yet-to-discover-own-talent group. So, I guess in the meantime, I'll just work hard and hopefully, my talent will emerge by itself, soon. But even if i work very very hard, will I ever be as good as the talented ones ?

Choppy,
-Searching-

Pass

It was 4/4/08, apparently not an auspicious day accodring to traditional Chinese belief. But bad luck or no bad luck, it was the day for my driving re-exam. Well, FYI, the last time I failed because the car engine died in the track. I was barely 10 seconds away from getting everything done but I guess Lady Luck just wasn't on my side. Crap.

So, my number was finally called and I walked slowly because I didn't want to go first. I just wasn't prepared. I was so freaking worried that history will repeat itself and have to brace the embarassment of being criticise by everybody again. I surveyed the kancils that were prepared that day. 2446. 4 very familiar digits. Well, of course I remembered them. I failed in it. Or rather it failed me. Then I remembered the last time where a group of guys were discussing the best car there and they all agreed 2449 was the safest. I doubt their choice because I was wondering how 1 single digit that is almost alike can make so much difference. But still, better safe than sorry. I looked around. 2449. There it was, the first car in line. All I had to do was to wait someone to get it done the first round and I'll go second. And everything will be over, I hope.

I step into the car, trying to familiarize with everything I've learned. Well, the last time I had touched one of those cars was exactly 2 weeks ago, on the day I failed. Didn't had any practice since then. The clutch, the pedal, the steering, etc..so familiar yet so alien. The old Malay man that was on duty there tried to give me some words of advice before i took off. Well, at least that was what I think he was tring to say because I could not understand a single word spurted out of his mouth besides 'clutch' and 'gear'. I think it was Hokkien. Bah, I was too nervous. I just smiled politely at him and blurted a few 'Ok's.

And then there was an earthquake! No wait.... the car wasn't shaking. Oh, it was my legs. Both my legs were trembling as though there was an earthquake with a record-breaking mark on the Richet scale. I was so worried because I couldn't control the gear and the accelerator pedal well. Then, I took a deep breath and chanted a few Buddha prayer for peace and calmness.

Ohm ma ni pad me hum.

Before I knew it, it was all done. And as they say, the rest was history. No more cash being flushed down the toilet, no need to ponteng school on Friday and most importantly, no more return trip to that hell on earth.

All that I can think of now is to drive my Kancil around! It may just be a Kancil but hey, its my first car, mind you! Bon voyage~

Choppy,

-Glad-

-Chilled-

Exhaustion

I'm freaking sick, tired, exhausted, stressed-out, etc ..... up till yesterday. To start it off,

- I failed my driving test in the worst case scenario; I was barely 10 seconds away from passing it, but luck wasn't on my side - the engine died. So, that means I need to pay extra cash, spend more time, and skip school AGAIN just to take the crappy re-exam. Crap.

- And not forgetting my sore eye that has been bugging me since 7 February 2008. It has been so long and yet shows no signs of improvement. Anybody would have thought it's cancer by now. And over the past month, I had to bare with other people's not-so-funny jokes about me spying on people in the toilet. And God knows how much longer I have to bear with that. Crap.

- The Physics Olympiad Taining Camp is starting again next week and I am so not prepared for it. I have not even touch on a single chapter of physics, which means I'm most probably going to embarass myself in the camp next week. I'll have to miss school AGAIN for 1 week and it's going to take me forever to catch up on chemistry and maths. Crap.

So, you see, yesterday was not a very good day at all. In fact, I think it was one of the worst in my life. So, the most natural question one might ask himself is 'Why is my life so difficult?' Of course, like anybody else would, I asked myself the same question. I lie down on my bed to get some rest but instead finding myself tossing and turning, with all the 'Why me?' thoughts cramped in my brain. My brain was about to burst. I was almost on the edge of breaking down. Just then, I asked myself again 1 simple question, 'Why am I making my life so difficult?'

I guess it's just the matter of how we look at thing around us. I admit that I am looking at things, even the tiniest of things way too seriously. I'm also a super-duper pessimistic person, contrary to what most people think I am. So, I've decided to change how things work in my brain. For now, I can only say that the things I face today will make me a stronger person for tomorrow. Besides, without failure, there will be no success. Without sadness, there will be no happiness. Right?

Yesterday was a bad day. Today is a good day. Tomorrow will be better, for you and me. So, cheer up, everybody! ^^

Choppy,
-Glad-

Makeover

The group of 'ah pek' over at the 'bak kut teh' shop devouring over their rice as they speak; ah sam discussing it over cups of kopi-o and hot milo (for their children/grandchildren who waits impatiently, concerned only about the Sunday morning cartoons they are missing, completely oblivious towards the fiery discussion going on) at the local 'kopitiam'; Adults scattering everywhere, desperate to get a copy of today's newspaper which is almost sold out; and excited teenagers who decided to join the commotion as well by talking about it over a cuppa at Starbucks and Coffee Bean. Yes, the whole nation is talking about it, the Malaysia 12th General Election.

There was only 1 word that would describe this election: dramatic! It is said to be the worst-ever election performance from Barisan Nasional(BN) since Malaysia gained independence 50 years ago. Compared with the landslide victory of BN in the 2004 election, 2008 is truly a sombre year for BN. With the loss of 2/3 majority in the Parliament, what are the prospects for the future of Malaysia and BN? Not surprising though, with the numerous scandal involving BN in recent years, it is hard not to lose confidence towards the current government. But with the shocking triumph of the opposition in 5 states and its performance in the Parliamentary election, will things instead turn better for Malaysia?

Its kinda like when you are at mamak, watching football and Beckham misses a game-deciding penalty kick. Then, somebody from the back suddenly stands up and shouts 'My grandmother can kick better-lah!' Well, maybe his grandma really can perform better than Beckham, but maybe not. Who knows ? So, lets put his grandmother on the field and put that statement into test (No offence to any grandmas out there and Beckham though, lol) I bet nobody dares say that Beckham had never done any good in the field before (I don't think he is just famous for his good looks, right?) but it's true that his performance may deteriorate. So, what does the manager do? Gives him another chance for him to improve or replaces him with a grandma and hopes for the best? Well, its really a huge dilemma for the people.

Anyway, the votes are in and voices of the people had been heard. The winds of change are roaring and Malaysia will undergo a serious political makeover. Its nice to see that democracy is still very much alive in Malaysia and people still believe in their power. For better or for worse? Only time will tell.

p.s. I personally do not support BN or the Opposition because I do not believe in a corruption-free party. People are materialistic and greed is an elementary characteristic of mankind. So, please do not sue me, lol.

Choppy,
-Wondering-

First

Joe shouted his name and pointed towards the area below the hoop. He hesitated for awhile but still made his move as he thought it was only one of Joe's strategy to distract the enemies from him. He took a few steps back. The enemies ignored him as they had not expected any outcomes from him, as observed in the previous match yesterday. He turned to look at the hoop, doubtful of his own position and abilities. Joe shouted for his name again. He turned towards Joe and saw a ball flying rapidly towards his direction. The ball knocks his arm, almost causing him a heart attack. He panicked for a split second but managed to keep his mind focus. He grabbed the ball. At the same time, he saw 1 of the enemy right beside him, ready to steal the ball anytime. Indecisive and ambiguity overwhelmed him.

He remembered Joe's words, whenever the ball is in my hand, just pass it to him. But he was just below the hoop, a perfect place for any amateur players to score, easily. He looks at Joe again. He hadn't had much time as the enemy was ready to strike anytime. He made his choice. He is going for the hoop.

He threw the ball. The ball went up high, even higher than the board. He loses slight hope of scoring. But miracle or some sort happened. The ball flew straight down hitting the ring. It circled around the ring, like you see in those movies. He froze with fear. Silence. And like most movies, the ball finally entered the hoop. 2 points to Mallory.

The world around him turned into silence. He stared blankly at the hoop. Astonished yet disbelief at the same time. As he ran back towards his base, preparing to defend against the enemies, he gains back his focus. He heard cheers from the crowd. He smiles sheepishly towards the crowd and told himself a silent 'yes' under his breath.

27-2-08

I scored my first points in my first ever basketball competition.

Cheers, to Joe for the chance and the enemies for a great game.

Long live Mallory.

Choppy,
-proud-

Bewildered

My dad, mom and I went out for dinner today at a nearby restaurant. When the waitress came and ask us for our order, my dad turned and asked me,

Dad : What to eat?

I just shrugged.

My dad turns to the waitress and ordered a plate of 'ying-yong'. Then, he turns back to me and ask, 'Anything else ? Hokkien mee ?'

Me : Er... 'man yee-mee' (braised yee-mee) !

Dad : Man yee-mee?! The 'ying-yong' already got sauce, you want to order another 1 with sauce?

Me : *long stare at my dad* Then, order Hokkien mee-loh.

Dad : Ok, 1 Hokkien mee.

WTH?! I didn't know that the restaurant serves Hokkien mee in fried bi-hun style?! They serve Hokkien mee without sauce, is it?! I was like totally dumbfounded when he gave that ridiculous remark. Even if Hokkien mee really comes in dry, which is totally absurd, what's wrong with eating 2 dishes with sauce? Does it mean that if a meal comes with soup, the other dishes must be super dry till their water content is all drained out? =.=

Its also kinda like I have 3 choices of drinks; Coke, Pepsi and 100-plus. After finishing my coke, when I'm about to pick up 100-plus to drink, somebody stops me and say, 'You drank coke which is so sweet already, you still want to drink 100-plus ah? Drink the Pepsi instead-lah.' Pepsi has a new bitter flavour, is it? If yes, do not even bother to recommend it to me, thank you ... Lame example, I know but please bear with me because I couldn't think of any better example. Lol.

Anyway, my folks really tick me off sometimes with their foolish reasonings.

In the end, the Hokkien mee came out with as much sauce as the plate could fit.

Choppy,
-Befuddled-

Hectic

Oh my god, I finally found time to actually post an entry! Hoorah! Life has never been busier for me since school started! I'ts really crazy and stressful at the same time. Anyway, I'm don't think I have anything significant to post about, but I'll just crap something out just to keep this blog 'so-called' alive. Anyway, this week is going to be as busy as usual, if not busier.

Things I have to get done:
- Prepare for a Maths spot-test on 'Integration', which apparently happens to be one of my weakest topics because I didn't finish the homework on that chapter. =P I can't flop it either because the subject teacher is my club's ex-teacher advisor. Don't want to spoil my image in front of him, if you know what I mean.
- Study for my Japanese Trial Exam on Sunday. We had a spot-test today and I did horribly! I can't imagine how will I do in the 'listening' test next week. It's probably going to be a disaster. Zz.
- Discuss with my Buddhist Society committee about activities to be held and conduct it on Friday.
- Do research on an activity that Majlis Tingkatan Enam (MTE) is up to. [Top Secret] Lol.

And in the meantime, I have to:
- Work part-time on Thursday and Friday [4-30pm to 10pm]
- Attend a St. John's Foot Drill Course on Saturday and then tuition in the afternoon. (There goes my Saturday, sigh....)
- Finish every homework.
- Squeeze in time to learn driving [I hope to get my 'P' before CNY >.<]

Cool, eh? I know this sounds crazy but hectic schedule is kind of fun sometimes! It keeps my adrenaline pumping like crazy! Anyway, I hope to get everything done as soon as possible. Hopefully, the 'Procrastinating' disease will not visit me anytime soon. Hopefully too, I will not break down emotionally or physically...I'm a survivor!

I'm a survivor ,
I'm not gonna give up ,
I'm not gon' stop ,
I'm gonna work harder ,
I'm a survivor ,
I'm gonna make it ,
I will survive ,
Keep on survivin' ,

Choppy,

-Determined to survive-

总在我身旁

Ok, as stated in my last post, here's the lyrics :

我从不相信自己
也无法面对现实
当生命失去了光
我就失去了方向

前路依然很模糊
要挣脱许多束缚
你让我依靠让我坚强
你守护在我身旁

每当我需要依靠你
你一定会在这里
有你的地方就有阳光
你总会在我身旁

当我还不够坚强(还不够坚强)
推翻命运的围墙
你还是和我在一起
给我无限的勇气

路依然走得困难
当我变成了负担
你依然把我紧紧拉着
我就是最幸福的

每当我需要依靠你
你一定会在这里
有你的地方就有阳光
你总会在我身旁

每当我需要依靠你
你一定会在这里(就在这里)
有你的地方就有阳光
你总会在我身旁(总会在我身旁)

我需要依靠你(要依靠你)
你就在这里
有你的地方就有阳光
你总会在我身旁

I'm sorry that I can't translate the lyrics to any of you 'bananas' out there but the lyrics is pretty simple actually. That's the amazing part of it; simple words, touching lyrics, beautiful melody, wonderful singers, what more can you ask for?

One question though, will I ever find my .... '你' ?

Choppy,
-Emo-fied-

Searching

I'm so sorry I havn't been posting lately because things are kind of messy recently. Hmm, maybe I should write it in a song. Here goes,

This is 10 percent bored, 20 percent lazy
15 percent busy to post any entry
5 percent messy, 50 percent delay
And 100 percent procrastination throughout the day

Hey, I did it! Hmm, I could might as well just take over Fort Minor.....just kidding! ( Dear Fort Minor fans, don't stare at me like that ) Well, that probably sums it up the condition of my life now too. I'm feeling so tensed up due to many many reasons. Do you ever feel like there is so much to do that you don't even know where to begin with? And finally you ended up doing nothing besides .... well, watching tv, sleeping, eating and going online for nothing? No? Fine, I guess its just me then...I need help! I need serious motivation to keep me going...I miss 5ST1 where the competition is always stiff and everyone is so worried about not finishing their homework. Ya, I know that souns pathetic... but deep down inside I really miss the environment! Its always the competition - mostly by Paul, Choo and Kar Hing - that keeps me motivated. And not forgetting Pn Yong that gives us stress every week with tonnes of homework. Gosh, I can't believe I'm saying this but I really miss her! I guess stress sometimes do help especially towards lazy people like me.... but now that everything is so peaceful, it's really weird but I must admit I'm rotting. As ironic as it sounds, that is the truth deep down from my heart. Sigh, nostalgia....

Anyway, more on stress next time because I don't plan to post a long entry today as there is school tomorrow ( I always say this but usually end up crapping a lot, lol so please bear with me dear readers ) Let's see...what else to talk about? O yah, recently I'm seriously addicted to a Taiwan singing competition called One Million Star a.k.a. 超級星光大道. I've learned a lot of things from this show, not just singing but also friendship and personalities. Well, maybe I'll post a special entry on this show some other time because as I said, I'm trying to keep this post short. Lol.

But there is this song that I must recommend to everybody here entitled 总在我身旁, which is sang by the top 10 contestants of the show. The song is so touching that I literally shed tears when I heard it the first time. I can sense a lot of jeers now.... what is wrong with a guy crying anyway? Bah, I don't care what people say about guys who cry being sissy because crying is just a feeling that every human have! I don't see anything wrong with crying to express my feelings. It's not like I'm crying for the wrong purpose anyway...when you are touched, you cry, as simple as that. What can I say? I'm a sensitive guy that is filled with emotions =). And don't you ever feel like you are instantly clicked with a song the first time you heard it? Well, apparently, this is one of those songs for me.The lyrics and melody is just so beautifully written. Anyway, I've already made it as my background song. Hope you guys will like it too. ^^ I'll just post the lyrics in the next post.

Finally, all I want to say is I've been doing some soul-searching lately. Well I'm not sure if it's considered 'soul-searching' but I've been thinking a lot lately before I go to sleep ( probably one of the reasons why I'm lacing of sleep ) Just general questions like what I'm going to be when I grow up or how is my life going to be like in the future. Don't get me wrong, I'm actually mature enough to not be thinking things like 'what to buy when I get rich someday' but rather questions that are more realistic. The process is really stressful and I try not to think about it but it just comes naturally all the time. I'll post on it if I actually succeed in it. In the meantime, I'll try my very best to stay relax and just have fun. Besides, that's what life is all about right? Having fun? Or is it? The human mind is really complex... well at least mine is.

Choppy,
-Nostalgic-
-Brainstorming-
-Slightly emo-fied-