Thoughts

天黑黑 欲落雨

天黑黑 黑黑...

I'm home alone again today and its raining quite heavily outside...

Rain; I like it when its raining. It's always so peaceful and serene on rainy days. It's rather ironic but I do think that the rain provides a comforting silence for me. I can't really explain it, maybe its the constant rhythm of the rain drops or the silent breeze that accompanies it, it really does create a soothing environment perfect for thoughts.

More often than not, as I lie on my comfy bed listening to the soft thuds of the rain drops, my mind starts to wonder aimlessly. As my mind begins its journey from the past to the present and to the future, questions of all sorts begin to pop like mushrooms. Questions that are sometimes foolish, joyful, regrettable and many times haunting.

What if I didn't accept the PTS offer during Standard 3?
What if I had transferred to Kwang Hua during Form 1?
What if I were offered a scholarship after SPM?
What if I had stayed in STAR for Form 6?
What if I were sent to 6B1 on my 1st day in High School?
What if I had fail to be selected for IPHO?
What if I obtain a discouraging result for STPM and fails to enter any public Unievrsity?
What if I were a Christian, Muslim or any other religion?
What if I were dead?

I know it's pointless to wander on things that were done in the past and things in the future that only time will tell. But nevertheless, these 'what if' questions are always so alluring because it allows the mind to run free. Sigh, so many questions yet so limited answers...

下起雨 也要勇敢前进

我相信 一切都会平息

我现在 好想回家去...

Choppy,
-Wandering-