Ok, so me, Vinsern, Alvin and Yichun went for a Christmas-themed party yesterday at the Ti-Ratana Community Centre at Bangsar organized by TRYBS ( Ti-Ratana Youth Buddhist Section ) . Ok, I know some of you are scratching your head now, wondering 'Why would a Buddhist Group celebrate Christmas ?' Well, the answer is because.... I have no idea too, lol. Well, who the heck cares? Japanese people celebrate Christmas too, so I guess there's nothing wrong having a Christmas-themed party, right?

Anyway, I'll just speak as we scroll down on the pictures...

So, we took the train there to Bangsar. Weird enough, Alvin's bro is going for the party too but his dad will be fetching him there later. So 3 of us were like wondering why can't we just follow his dad car there? Huh?

En tao Vinsern sleeping while standing in KTM....sleeping also so yeng, lol

Reached KL Central and ate McDonald there first because all of us were like so hungry...havn't eaten McD for more than 2 months...looks like plastic..hmm...

Random shot of 3 lonely kids walking to the centre...Do not include the man in blue please..xD

Reached there 5.30pm and this was the condition of the place...Crazy Alvin said must reach before 6pm..yah right...

The first thing we did when we got there...SS of course! Well, you saw the condition of the place, we were bored like hell!

Then we were off to Dominos to get some pizza for the party .. and while waiting..what else? SS again-lahhh~..don't need ask also know-lah...

The new Dominos model, Bro. Vins...Vincent! Sigh..Vinsern and Vincent =_=||

And more SS

Erk...High Five!

Then we helped out with the decorations....It's amazing how 4 Lower 6 students took almost 30 mins to tie up 5 balloons together, wow

I asked Yichun to snap this photo with flash because I couldn't see what pizza flavour was this haha

Greedy Xin Yi attacking the food!

SS with the 'pro' photographer Yan Leng...the effects behind is awesome! thx Visnern!

The 'Mature' Group...Xin Yi not counted =P

Candy Posers!

And now to name some of those who came...1st we have Ms Plastic Plate

Mr Sandman in his feminie side

Mr and Mrs Lim

and posers haha

Then they had performances...and Swee Pie performed solo! woohoo! SP roxx!

Game time afterwards...game no 1 - Limbo Rock...boring

Roadrunners...Go!...boring too...one of them actually puked after finish drinking..my gawd..

Saw SP eating alone so we all decided to SS with him haha

Then there was a long video presentation on TRYBS...I can't believe they replay the Jr. Camp video which was like 20 mins long and kept replaying the 'Tong Hua' song...=.=...feel so sick with that song now..

Then we exchanged gifts! I wonder who got my keychains..hmmm

Well, I got this giant Voodoo! Kawaii nehh~ Thanks to whoever bought this! ^^

Conclusion, it was a good party but the games were a lil' boring. Had a great time fooling around with Yan Leng, lol. Don't forget you owe me 1 ya? The only bad thing was I spent RM30 for the party but I only ate 1 slice of pizza, 1 muffin and few cups of orange juice. Shouldn't have eaten McDonald! Sad.

Choppy,
-Nostalgic-

Leng Lui

Yap, everyone is right, my sister is just a LOA b**** ( ok, fine, nobody exactly said this ). So, I've decided to...not to talk to her for 1 month! Maybe 1 year, hmm, we'll see.

Anyway, changing the tone of this post, my family and I went my aunt's house yesterday for a Xmas dinner like past years. And this is the 1st outing for my me with my new camera! So, let's see how the camera did,

Food!!

Cakes!

er...something random lol

Xmas tree!

Pressies!

Me and cousin ss. Well, of course you have to ss when you have a new camera around. Besides, we were bored. =P

OMG, leng lui alert!







How can I not ss with the leng lui?

Leng Lui gets all the guys, right?

hmm, it's starting to look like I'm stalking her. Better stop here.

Choppy,
-Random-

Xmas Spirit?

I walked to and fro from Jusco 3 times in a week. Spent an average 2 hours / day there alone walking around and around again, ambiguously. Spent close to RM100 at Jusco and Sunway Pyramid. Searched high and low for a good hiding place to hide the gifts. All these just to choose the right, perfect Xmas presents for my family of 4 - parents, brother and sister.

Today is Xmas. Felt very excited to see everyone's happy faces when they unwrap their gifts. Got the new camera ready to snap everyone's happy faces so that I could blog it up here and feel proud. I gave my brother his gift first. He was busy preparing to return to Johor soon so he just held it while packing his stuff. Gave my sister hers. Things turned ugly. She opened it - a beanie - and started shouting. No, it was not shouts of joy or bliss but ironically, shouts of rage and anger.

This is not what I wanted!

You bought this for yourself!

You all never buy anything I wanted!

She ran over to open my brother's gift - a NBC tissue box holder. She demanded to exchange gifts with my bro. I tried and I tried, repeatedly saying I bought this with my own work money, please appreciate it. She insisted on changing and started shouting the same lines above. She slammed her door in rage. My cheeks felt wet.

Now, the beanie is somewhere in the living room. My brother is back to Johor, leaving the tissue box holder on his bed. I sat on my bed, with tears rolling down my cheeks, thinking 'Where had I gone wrong'? All I wanted to do was to celebrate a merry Xmas with my family and this is what I get? Screams of fury? Even though, I had never receive presents from any of my siblings, as far as I can remember, but still I try so hard to let everyone relive the experience and the excitement of opening a nicely-wrapped mysterious gift. I just don't know what else I can do for this family anymore, especially my sister. Xmas spirit? To hell with that. Xmas in me is dead. Period.

Yah, so that was practically how everything turned out. How my 'jolly' 'merry' Xmas crashed and burned. How my 1st time experience in buying Xmas gifts for my family turned out solemn. How my efforts in spreading some Xmas spirit and joy in my family got 'rewarded' with tears of disappointment and hopelessness. And everything turned from bliss to gloom just like that.

My tears are dripping out again as I type this post. How I wish I could talk to someone right now. But who to in this lonely, foreign house?

Choppy,
-Devastated-
-Lonely-

Life

I woke up it was 7
I waited till 11
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think i got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone?
When your spending everyday on your own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonight...

And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed
Staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time, I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own and here it goes

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me

What the hell is wrong with me?
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world.

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me tonight

I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cause I'm just a kid tonight

I'm starting to get really sick with this school holiday. I'm just rotting at home every single day. I don't even know if I should feel sad or glad that the school is reopening in less than 2 weeks time. Is my life destined to be this boring?

Anyway, something out of topic, I went to a relative party today and there was this girl who stared right at my face when I arrive at the house. Then, she gave this really weird expression; sort of 'this-guy-looks-weird' type of face. I completely ignored her and instantly indulge in the food catered. I guess gluttony is truly my middle name, eh Kar Hing? Loved the cherry tomatoes in the salad, each of them actually squirt juice even when u bite them softly.

Ok, enough with the blunt chatter. Then after finish eating, I just sat there enjoying my people-watching session while listening to the elders speaking in Hainanese. Well, I'm trying to learn it, FYI. Suddenly, they were talking about me; my age, school, form etc. Then they realise 'Xiao Mei' is also Lower 6 now and is studying in High School. I was stunned at first because I had no idea who Xiao Mei is yet still curious to find out who this person is that is my relative studying in the same school as me but I am so clueless about. The elders started looking around finding for this 'Xiao Mei'. Then they found her seated just 5 feet away from me. I had the shock of my life. Who is this girl? I don't think I've seen her before in High School... It was the girl that stared at me that I was talking about earlier. Don't worry, you will know who she is in the end.

I gave a weird stare at her at first. Then she laughed at me and said ' You can't recognise me?' I, still regretting it now, said 'No' honestly. Then I scanned her face a little longer and I kind of have a clue who is she. I was guessing she is this girl that is in 6B7 from Interact Club, but still, I was not sure. I quickly sms-ed Vinsern and Sau Seong - both of them are in Interact Club - to ask for that girl name since I was seriously ashamed that I had no idea who she is. Both of them told me Hew Fen, which obviously is not because I know Hew Fen. Then I couldn't wait any longer and as we were about to leave, I asked her if she was from 6B7. She said 'No-lah, I'm 6B5, you got the wrong person-lah'. I was like OMG, this is so embarassing. But then, I asked her does she tie pony tail every day at school and she said 'Yes' and if she is in the Interact Club and she said 'Yes'. Then I was sure I got the right person. But I just had 1 problem, I don't know her name, lol.

Anyway, few reasons I did not recognise her was because she let her hair down and she looked really mature. I thought she was one of the bride's friends. She looked really pretty too with her hair down. Anyway, I can't believe she could recognise me and I couldn't recognise her. How embarassing. She said she could recognise me because I always hang out with Yi Chun. Anybody who hang out with Yi Chun will be popular. Can you believe that? =.=

Anyway, now I know what's her name, which is Shu Shang. I'm really surprise to have another cousin that studies in the same school as me since I also had one cousin who studies the same class as me back in La Salle, which is my doggie Chang. Lol. What can I say? It's a small world after all, it's a small small world.

Choppy,
-Bored-
-Surprised-

Similar

Till this date there have been 3 person that said I looked like Aaron Yan from Fahrenheit. Hey,I can see you laughing =.= Anyway, the 3 person who said it were Shin Yee, Peng Han ( although he sounded a lil' bit sarcastic ) and finally Nurul, the Malay girl I met this afternoon ( Refer previous post )

What did you say ? Don't know Aaron Yan? Well, I guess it's not surprising because the limelight is usually stolen by Wu Zun, who is acclaimed to be more handsome by most people. I'll just show you a picture of the boy band.

Wu Zun is bottom left; Aaron Yan is top right.

So now to compare,

Round 1

VS

Round 2

VS

Similar? I think my head is alot bigger, lol. You go figure!

Choppy,
-Ambiguous-

Wasted

Well, I slept at 3am yesterday just to finish the freaking Undang book and had to wake up today at 7am to get ready as my cousin and I were going to leave around 8am. When we enter the shop, we were greeted by a shocking news! The auntie told us that yesterday, there was also 2 person that went for the exam and they only finished around 3pm because there were so many people due to the school holidays! I was like 'WTH?!', I thought we'll be home around 10am! Crap! Then, we were headed to Batu Belah where the Undang exam takes place. On the way, I was so anxious because I expected to see a huge centre for the examination, at least the size of the place where I went to listen for my KPP. As we were almost there, the uncle that fetched us there suddenly said, ( translated from mandarin )

Uncle : Waah, see there. Got see many people or not? Yau pai dang loh~ ( Need wait very long loh in Cantonese)

Me : Har? Har? Where? * blur face *

I looked around and saw a row of shoplot. In front one of the shoplot was a few people lurking around. I had no idea where the uncle was referring to.

Then, shockingly, he stopped us infront of that particular shoplot and told us what we were supposed to do when we got inside. I stared blankly at that shoplot and the huge centre image in my mind collapsed. Crap again. So when we got in, there were seriously alot alot alot of people waiting already, cramped in such a tiny area and there were obviously no seats left. We were forced to wait outside for about 1 hour before we actually found seats inside. While we waited outside, we just analysed the facial expressions of people coming out to see if they passed or fail. Pathetic right? Yah, I know. Hey, I was bored, don't blame me! xD After taking our seats, I realised the atmosphere inside was so tensed! Everyone was like so silent and kept staring at their books. They all started making me nervous, as though the exam was so difficult. But I was thinking, if an auntie or uncle can pass, should be no problem for me-lah. But still, being paranoid as usual, I just did some last minute revisions, well, you know, just in case. ^^

While waiting, I just started chatting with 3 Malay girls. 2 of them were from Sekolah Menengah Bukit Jelutong while the other 1 , surprisingly, studies in STAR ( Sekolah Tengku Ampuan Rahimah ) ! But I'm sad and embarassed to say that I only remembered the name of 1 of the Bukit Jelutong girl, which was Nurul. OMG, she was hillarious! She - no offence - talks alot and she actually speaks Mandarin! She learns Mandarin herself through Taiwan dramas and songs. Cool, huh? Everytime she speaks Mandarin, I just couldn't stop laughing, lol. She was really friendly and I'm glad to meet her there. Without her chatter, I would have fallen asleep. Phew~ All 4 of us just talked about their plans after SPM, NS and other stuffs that a normal 17-ers will talk about. The STAR girl and I also chatted about the school politics in STAR and guess what? BRANDON, IF YOU ARE READING THIS, SHE SAID YOU ARE ADORABLE! GET THE HINT?! xD

Then my name was suddenly called out. I shivered abit. My heartbeat rate increased. My palms got a lil' sweaty. I am sure the photo they took of me was hideous. And I finally entered the exam room after a staggering 3 hour-long wait. I took my seat. It was computer number 11. I held the mouse firmly in my palms. I prayed silently. And there I was doing the test that I studied just yesterday. And thankfully, not boasting or anything, the questions were pretty easy! It was kinda like a PMR standard Moral Paper where the choice of answers were mostly ridiculous and the correct ones were pretty obvious. I was out within 19 minutes with a triumphant score, 47/50. Woohoooo!!

But unfortunately, my cousin actually failed =.= A sad 38/50. So, he'll have to take the re-exam some other time. Poor kid. As for me, I'll be starting my Amali sooner than you know it! ^^ And lucky us, we were finished around 12.30pm. Wee~

So, when I reached home, I was pretty excited because my sister said she wanted to take me go Sunway. Well, at least my leave from Kumon will not be wasted and I'm craving so badly to go shopping. Got home, went her room, sees her sleeping on her bed! Triple Crap! She actually slept from 12.30pm till now, which is almost 9pm while I'm writing this post. I thinks she's really living a life of a pig. She woke up 4am today, watched her anime till 12, ate her lunch and now sleeping. I think there is no other pig more pig-er than her, whatever that means. Nevermind, I thought because En Tao Hog yesterday said that he will jio me out today in the afternoon. So, all hopes were not lost yet. And so, I waited for the sms. 2pm, no rings. I said, forget it, I'm going to bed. So much for my hard-earned leave. Wasted just like that at home surfing the net aimlessly. Boring. Period.

Well, my family and I are going to Port Dickson tomorrow and I'm not having any high hopes of having fun because it has been raining every single day lately. I don't even know the purpose of this school holiday anymore. Sigh.

Choppy,
-Glad-
-Un-excited-

Sexyback

After a staggering 1 month period, guess who's back bringing sexy back? No, not Britney Spears, she's still somewhere in the States - probably shaving her head or getting her butt kicked into court again - but hey, I'm not here to talk about her, I'm talking about me of course, if you hadn't notice I have not been online for more than a month, FYI. So, let me hear you welcome me back to the world of pixels! .......*Silence*.......... Ok, thank you, so I guess nobody's excited or anything.

Anyway, enough with the pathetic act, just so you know, I finally got my pc and modem fixed today! Well, it has been spoiled since like right after the Sayonara Jr. Camp which was in November and I finally got the time to send it for repair! Well, I had been quite busy recently, with my work in Kumon - 1.30pm to 10pm, Monday to Friday except Wednesday - and of course watching movies on Wednesday ( well I don't want to miss the RM 6 super deal on Wednesdays, besides there are so many movies to watch recently xD ) and not forgetting my tuition classes and Japanese classes on Saturday and Sunday respectively. So, luckily I had taken leave today and my cousin's pc was so coincidentally spoilt too, then I managed to follow him and my uncle to repair both our pc at the Store! Hooray! Thanks uncle! That reminds me, I havn't pay him the money yet....

Anyway, so since I'm back, this blog will be up and running as soon as possible, hopefully. There is just so much to talk about! There's the Sayonara Junior camp, my birthday, the Kumon trip to Cameron Highland, my encounter with an 80 year-old grandmother, etc etc. I'll try to keep everything short though since all of those passed quite long ago. Bah, it's not like anybody cares. =.=

As for now, I need to go read up on my Undang because I'm taking the test tomorrow. I'm now in.....page 37 which means about 100 more pages to go. Holy mother of god! I need to finish it! I hope I don't flop it tomorrow because that will be so embarassing =.= So, no time to talk! Check back next time ya!

*Plays Justin Timberlake's Sexyback*.............
I'm bringing Sexy Back, uh huh~

Choppy,
-Anxious-

Panda Eye Syndrome

The post below is inspired by Eliza's pledge to sleep early and cure her panda eye syndrome, I too shall now follow her noble footsteps and pledge to sleep early!

The reason I'm pledging is because in this recent months, I have not been getting adequate hours of sleep for a normal teenager. As most of you would have known, the optimum hours of sleep suggested by scientists are 8 hours everyday. This is to maximise the pysical and mental growth, as they say. However, I on the other hand is getting around 5-6 hours of sleep only per day!

On weekdays, I usually sleep around 1am and have to wake up by 6am. Only on weekends I usually get enough sleep but still, not all of them. So, that is why I'm always tired in school and not forgetting those awful panda eyes. And then I will end up wasting 2-3 hours to sleep in the afternoon. But then, since I've started working again, which starts around 4pm, I no longer have enough time to sleep in the evening since I usually reach home around 2-3pm. There was once I even fell asleep at Kumon! I still remembered 1 student came and told me when I woke up, " Eh, teacher. You wake up already ah? " OMG, so embarassing! Luckily the boss didn't notice me sleeping or I would have been fired long time ago. Hmm, maybe she did notice...*gasp*

Lets take a look at the effects of sleep deprivation,

Generally, lack of sleep may result in:
-aching muscles;
-blurred vision;
-Cardiovascular disease;
-clinical depression;
-colorblindness;
-daytime drowsiness and naps;
-decreased mental activity and concentration;
-depersonalization/derealization;
-weakened immune system;
-dizziness;
-dark circles under the eyes;
-fainting;
-general confusion;
-hallucinations;
-hand tremors;
-headache;
-hernia;
-hyperactivity;
-hypertension;
-impatience;
-irritability;
-Lucid dreaming (once sleep resumes);
-memory lapses or loss;
-nausea;
-nystagmus (rapid involuntary rhythmic eye movement);
-psychosis;
-pallor;
-slowed reaction time;
-slurred and/or nonsensical speech;
-weight loss or gain;
-severe yawning;

Adapted from Wikipedia (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sleep_deprivation)

But the worse of all is I saw it on TV that lack of sleep can also cause hairloss and blackspots!Holy crap! Now, I certainly do not want to be the next baldy nor do I want to have blackspots all over my face. I already have enough population of blackspots around my nose, thank you. I don't want to be 'suan' by Hogzai about my blackspots matching my face or my blackspots 'disusun dengan teratur' anymore! And then, I had this massive headache today that I have not gotten since ages ago. Its obviously a signal to me that it is now time for a change. That is why it is vital for me to sleep early and get adequate hours of sleep! Die Panda Eyes!

This post also serves as a reminder to all you night-dwellers out there! You guys better sleep early too or you might just be the next baldy or get infected by the Panda Eye Syndrome. Who knows ? Don't say I didn't warn ya...

Choppy,
-Cautious-
-Pledged-

Cute @ 可爱 ?

Below definitions are adapted from reliable sources and people around me.

Cute : Ugly But Adorable
Am I that ugly?

可爱 : 可憐到没有人爱
Am I that 可憐?

*Speechless*

Anyway, don't mind me. Just posting something random. Haha.

Just came back from 'lim-teh' with Vinsern, HogZai and Debbie. Can't get enough of HogZai's stories. Lol xD.

And I'm getting a pair of contact lense this Tuesday. So excited about my new look. Wonder how will I look like with it. Maybe I should go get a haircut to match the new look. Hmm....

Choppy,
-Random-

Rain

No, I'm not writing anything about Rain, the pop-sensation from Korea, FYI.
Just so you know, to my fellow readers that are not from Klang, it has been a really chilly day today. It's been raining for 23 hours now! And still counting! Since 1am today till now, 5 minutes pass 12am, the raindrops are still streaming down from the clouds. Well, it didn't rain continuously for 23 hours but more or less it has been drizzling throughout the whole day. So I'm feeling pretty darn cold now while writing this post. Definitely one of the longest and weirdest rain I've ever seen in Klang. I wonder if its Global Warming? Hmm...

Anyway, I don't know if its the weather or something else, but I'm feeling very darn down today. Actually, had been feeling down since yesterday..but not as bad as today. Could be the gloomy weather... oh well, I don't know for sure. An example of my down-ness is I was playing Fergie's Big Girls Don't Cry just awhile ago and I suddenly feel like the song is annoying! I mean, it has been my favourite song for almost 3 months now and out of the blue, I'm hating the song now?! The worse is I can't seem to find a song in my playlist that I feel comfortable listening to and singing along with. Definitely something is not right with me today. I hope something blissful happens to me soon to cure me and save me from this down-ness. Sigh, sad.

Anyway, I decided to change my background music into a more soothing and relaxing melody entitled 'Loss Of Me' from the Final Fantasy IX soundtrack. Its really nostalgic. Brings back the memories of the game and the storyline. I love the game so much..the characters, the soundtracks...everything! I miss Vivi....And somehow I feel like I can relate myself to the song, feeling so lost about myself.

Anyway sorry you had to read this random post and ramblings of mine. Hope you have a good day! I'm gonna go hide under my blanket now. So Cold!

Choppy,
-Freezing-
-Moody-

Spooky

I was walking from Pizza Hut at the ex-Ocean outlet there to Dominos alone today. And you know what the streets around Ocean is famous for right fellow Klang-ians? Yes, hookers! And trust me, none are pretty or sexy. In fact, they're transexuals! Well, at least most of them are, I think...Or is it all of them..hm..I'm not sure, but there are plenty! Plenty of fat ugly ones! Anyway so when I was walking, I happen to pass a group of them sitting around a staircase chatting. And when I was getting nearer, one of them, a fat ugly Indian hooker saw me and pointed his/her ( I don't know which one, I'm confused ) finger at me and then kind of wrapped his/her fist, pulling it towards her and turned around. Then I saw the ugliest smile ever. I walked as fast as I could. Spooky-fied. I think I'm having nightmares tonight.

Choppy,
-Horrified-

Mask

Your smile
so cheerful, so bright
yet your eyes
betrayed
the curvature of your lips.

Yes, I know
through your eyes
such despair, lonely eyes
glimmer with tears
none joyful.

Behind the mask insecurely attached
is a face many times
drenched
with the pearls of your eyes
so precious,so pure
so innocent.

But be strong
for the time will come
where
the eye of heaven shines
with flowers bloom
butterflies flutter
and melodies fill the air
like the early days of spring.

Deliberately
your mask will shed
and once more
I shall witness
your true smile
my friend.

Choppy,
-Gloomy-

Movies

"If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does He give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does He give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does He give them opportunities to love each other?"
-Morgan Freeman as God in 'Evan Almighty'

Ok, as what you might have guessed. I just finished watching Evan Almighty today. But for this post, I'm not going to write much about the movie. Well, not because its a boring movie or anything but I've got a bigger point to talk about here. So you see, I've been watching quite alot movies and TV series lately and actually learned quite alot of new stuffs, from general knowledge to ... facts of life, seriously. First it was 'An Inconvenient Truth' where I'd learned so much about Global Warming and its consequences as stated in my last post. And today, I actually learned something about God from 'Evan Almighty'! I know its a comedy but hey, I really did learn something meaningful from the movie.

As you can see from the quote I picked out above, its really something simple, yet a beautiful phrase. Whenever we humans pray for something, do we really expect it to drop straight from heaven and land right infront of us? I don't know about you but I've got to confess that sometimes, I do. And if that wish doesn't come true, you know who I would be blaming, eh? Yes, nobody but God. I can't believe how naive I am those days. That phrase really gave me a wake up call, period. I realise now that when we pray for something, God creates opportunities for us to reach for that something. God makes us sweat for it so that we can appreciate the sweetness of the fruit of our hardwork. Instead of turning us into greedy lazy bums that just wait for miracles to happen. Besides, the process rather than the product is what that counts, right?

Another example, when people pray to be rich, why do people dream of striking the lottery only? Its like searching a needle in the open sea ( well, I cant say haystack 'cos Adam and Jamie from Mythbusters already proven that possible, darn it )! Don't they realise that there are other ways of earning big bucks such as, I don't know...work hard maybe? Oh well, maybe they were really hoping for a miracle. What's life without hope, eh? Or is it...?

Anyway, I just wanna say sorry to God for putting all those blames on Him all this time. And I promise that I would not let any opportunities slip away again.

Before I end this, I just want to say ... Steve Carell rocks! He's a really awesome actor and comedian! His dances are so addictive! I just can't get enough of this guy! Ciaoz~

p.s.Something out of topic but somehow related. David Copperfield is coming to Malaysia and he said that he would be turning some locals into lottery strikers because he heard that lottery is really popular here. Just something I read from the newspaper. So, if you're really hoping to strike it big time, go watch his performance and try your luck! Who knows?

Choppy,
-Enlightened-

An Inconvenient Truth

"You look at that river gently flowing by. You notice the leaves rustling with the wind. You hear the birds; you hear the tree frogs. In the distance you hear a cow. You feel the grass. The mud gives a little bit on the river bank. It’s quiet; it’s peaceful. And all of a sudden, it’s a gear shift inside you. And it’s like taking a deep breath and going, 'Oh yeah, I forgot about this'."
—Al Gore in the opening monologue of An Inconvenient Truth.

Just finished watching An Inconvenient Truth few minutes ago. And I have to say its very thought-provoking and inspiring. The main reason I didn't watch this earlier is because I thought it was going to be lengthy, boring and preachy and like many others out there, wasn't really conscious about environmental issues that are happening around us. But like hell, I was so wrong, so darn wrong. Unlike a boring 'seminar kerjaya' in school where the lecturer just stands right infront of the hall talking while you drift away to sleep, this documentary presented by Al Gore is filled with much evidence that comes in the form of graphs, pictures and even short cartoon animations. Al Gore himself is very passionate about the topic and the way he presents his slideshow is very, non-praechy. Lol. His arguments were logical, organised and sets you thinking. He really opened up my eyes and let me saw the reality of Global Warming.

Its very obvious now that the Earth is dying due to pollution. With the rising of temperature and crazy climate all around the world, how can you not notice ? Al Gore presented some bothering examples on consequences of Global Warming such as the melting ice caps in the poles that will cause a 20ft rise in sea level and many more. But its sad and depressing to see that even with such significant statistics shown by scientist all around the world, some political leaders are still in denial of the effects of Global Warming. According to them, its no big deal and its just a natural phenomenon. What the hell? Are they blind? Isn't Hurricane Katrina alarming enough to show everyone that actions must be taken now to reduce Global Warming? Its now or never people, now or never.

Besides, it is us humans that destroyed the mother nature in the first place. Newton's Third Law states that,

"For every action, there is a reaction with equal size but in opposite direction"

Do people still believe that we can cut down the forest and cause no harm to mother nature? Or polluting the rivers and seas and cause no harm to ourselves? Ugh, if its yes, please slap yourselves 3 times.

Anyway, I hope the Malaysian government is very much aware of Global Warming and will put in much more effort to reduce carbon dioxide emmisions. If the enthusiasm that everyone showed when sending our first Angkasawan, Dr Sheikh to space was protrayed as much as in saving the environment, I believe this world will be a better place. In fact, I feel its more worthy to spend all those money and effort into reducing Global Warming.

Back to the point, I recommend everyone to watch this movie by all means so that you too can open up your eyes and see for yourself what mankind has done towards mother nature in just a short 5-10 years period time. And please help save the earth before its too late. Watch the credits too as it will show ways where you can help reduce Global Warming, simple ways such as recycling. Oh, and remember to spread this movie to your family and friends! As for me, for now I'll go encourage my parents to change all those lightbulbs into energy-saving ones. Then, I'll go join Kelab Pencinta Alam. I wonder if they still accept new members, hmm...

Do you know that polar bears are drowning because they couldn't find ice to land on?

p.s. please visit http://www.stopglobalwarming.org/countmein.asp to join the Stop Global Warming Virtual March to let your voice be heard in the movement to reduce carbon dioxide emmisions!

Choppy,

-Determined-

-Concerned-

Hairspray

Just finished watching hairspray. One word, A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. Hmm, how do I descride it? Its like a 60's version of High School Musical with an extra bonus, John Travolta! Oh yah, and of course not forgetting Queen Latifah! Compared to High School Musical, Hairspray has a slightly better storyline with a better line of cast. I mean, John Travolta. Helo?! He's not only good in grooving but also acting! However, sad to say that HSM has a prettier and voluptuous Vanessa Anne Hudgens as the main actress but hey, nobody's complaining about Nikki Blonsky 'cause girl, she can sing and dance as good as Baby V. No doubt on that. Acting skills wise, no comments, they're just the same to me, lol. Anyway, if you are fond of musicals such as HSM and a big fan of retro music and dances, this is the show for you! In fact, I feel its a show for everybody, big or small, old or young. This movie will set you dancing on your feet, people! So, don't miss it! Please, I am begging you. Lol.

Choppy,

-Excited-

-Groovy-

Checklist

Things to do during the holidays :

1. Watch finish lots and lots of TV shows in order (as usual, just being a couch potato. Lol)
- Goong [Korean] - Currently in episode 13, in 2 days. Hoho. I'm crazy about this show.
- One Litre Of Tears [Japanese] - Only 8 episodes, shouldn't take too much of my time. Heard that it makes everyone who watches it cry. I want to see if its true. I'll tell you if it does, no worries.
- Densha Otoko also known as Train Man - Missed it on 8tv the other time. Darn it!
- Grey's Anatomy [American] - I've forgotten I watched till which episode. I think it was the part where Danny died. You've got any idea which episode is that ?
- Fate/Stay Night [Anime] - Saw 1 episode on Animax. Interesting...

2. Watch these movies in order
- Hairspray - Looks nice! It has Zac Efron and John Travolta in it! And its musical!
- An Inconvenient Truth - Hey, I care about the environment too, FYI.
- I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry- Heard its very funny. And it has Kevin James and Adam Sandler! Wow!
- Evan Almighty - How can you resist Steve Carell? He is one hell of a joker!
- Ratatouiie - A rat learning to cook. What more can you ask for ?

3. Finish reading these books that I've bought for such a long time
- Memory Keeper's Daughter - Bestseller for god-knows-how-many weeks in MPH
- Eragon - A boy and a Dragon. That should be fun, right ?
- Densha Otoko also known as Train Man - Havn't bought it yet though. Going to get it when I've got the cash. Ya, I know, sounds stupid to read and then watch it again. But hey, everyone does that for Harry Potter. Besides, both the drama and manga are award-winning.

4. Work very, very, very hard to earn alot money for
- my driving license - Can't believe I'm getting it soon in about 3 months. Eek, so excited!
- Holiday trip - Gosh, I want to go to so many places for vacation!
- a RM119.90 Seed jacket - No comments, lol. Just want to say that the jacket is A-W-E-S-O-M-E. Period.
- contact lense - No special reason. Just want to have them.

5. Ok, that's enough fun. Time for some education (Boring..)
- Finish up all the exercises for Maths- Pretty ambitious, huh ? Lol.
- Read up on Chemistry to see which freakin part I do not understand - Probably the whole thing. Deng.
- Read up on my Japanese Lesson - If I don't catch up soon enough, I'll be lost in class. Furthermore, I don't even recognize a single Katagana anymore. Darn, I'm so dead.

Well, that basically sums up everything I'll be doing for the next few months. I'll keep you guys on track, don't worry! Wish me luck!

Choppy,
-Determined-
-Excited-

To Nurin

Dear Nurin Jazlin Jazimin
(The little girl most of us never knew but cried for)

What horrible, heartless beast
What brutal, merciless monster
Ravaged your innocence
And stole your life so savagely
Tears of sorrow
Expressions of grief
And words of sympathy
Can never make up for the pains you suffered

Oh... how you must have suffered
But sweet darling
Cry no more, fear no more
Your sufferings are no more
And you are safe now, forever safe
In a place far far better
Than this wicked world

Dear God
We return Nurin to you
Not as unblemished as the little girl you sent us
But just as innocent, just as chaste
Take her hands
Lead her straight to heaven
And if there is a special spot there
For someone special
Grant it to this little girl
She deserves the best in Your Heaven.

Subhi Mohamed, Penang

Adapted from The Star,

Star Two,

Wednesday, 10 October 2007.

Few weeks ago, the nation was stunned by the brutal murder of a little girl. Hopefully, the malevolent paedophile would be arrested as soon as possible as to prevent other children from this lurking beast. It really makes me wonder wether if there is still hope in this corrupted world? Or is Doomsday gradually approaching? Only time will tell. Nevertheless, may justice prevail for this innocent girl, Nurin. I pray that all is well for you in the other world.

Choppy,
-despair-

Holidays

Ok, so my end-term exam is finally over. That's practically why I havn't been posting for a very long time. Sorry about that. Anyway, we are given a 1 week + break, 11 days to be exact due to the coming Hari Raya. So, I guess I should be cheering and feeling all relieved. Right. But am I ?

Lets do some flashbacks, shall we? So, during the past holidays, from after SPM which is December last year till June this year, what have I done? Lets see, besides work, and work, and more work at Jaya Jusco for the first 2 months and later Kumon till now...what else did I do? Hmm, I also went for St John Youth Camp on June and joined the State Level First Aid and Foot Drill Competition on March ( not boasting or anything, haha ) ....what else.... gosh, I can't remember. Did I even spend any time with my friends? Oh yah, I remember that Genting trip with my classmates, which turned out disastrous and I believe those who went knows why. Sigh. The later trip to Genting again with my Competition team was so much better but wasn't very great either due to non-disclose-able reasons. Yes, I guess you find it stupid to actually visit Genting twice a year. I think so too but nevertheless, I went.

So, that's basically what I did during my holidays. I don't know about you guys, but I think my holiday sucks. Yes, my holiday sucks. I don't know why but mainly I think its because I didn't spend much 'enjoyable' time with my friends. Let me ask any of my ex-La Sallian classmates who happens to read this, how many class gatherings were held after SPM? Ok, there was one at Teck Han's house, which only involve Chinese and later another BBQ party at Fan Di's where only about 10 people attended? I don't recall 5ST1 having only Chinese students or worst, only 10 students in the class? Even with my amnesia, I think there was about 30+ with a mix of Chinese, Malay and Indian, right? Conclusion, 'successful' class gathering held till this day, Zero.

Well, its not like I'm blaming anybody here because I, myself is to blame either. In fact, I'm really thankful to those who tried really hard to gather each and every one of us. I guess its really tough because if I did not recall wrongly, there was some stiff class politics and even some slight racial discrimination happening throughout the year. Oops, I should have kept my lips sealed. Bah, who cares?

And whenever I flip through my friends' profiles in friendster, just looking through their pictures, there is usually a sense of jealousy in me or rather a sense of disappointment in myself. I'm always looking at pictures of other people having fun with their friends at various places and various events. And when I look at my own profile, boring. Well, I don't know if its because I seldom take pictures when hanging out with friends causing me to fail to reminisce any good times whenever hanging out with my friends, if there is even any, but I just get this fuzzy feeling in me. Why is everyone having so much fun and I'm here sitting at this empty house all alone turning into a potato couch? It really makes me feel like a lonely kid not able to lead a happy and joyful teenager's lifestyle. It's as though I'm wasting my teenage years while the time is ticking with no mercy.

Oh well, I guess I'm just not feeling the 'love' from my friends or whatsoever. Yes, I know I have some very good friends out there but, I don't know, maybe its just a personal issue. When I see a group of friends having some jolly good time, I will feel this sudden loneliness in me although I'm not sure why. Do everybody feel this way or is it just me? I don't know. I guess I'm just not really satisfied with my life now. High expectations you say? I don't know. Maybe. Sigh. Sad, huh?

Anyway, I hope that this coming holiday will be very well spent. I don't want to spend any more time turning into a potato couch. I hope a successful 5ST1 gathering will be held very soon. Can't wait for my current class vacation too. I wonder where will 6B2 be heading? Haha. Oh well, doesn't really matter as long as it does not involve Genting and we can have fun.

So sorry you had to read this boring, emo, and crappy ramblings of mine.
Happy holidays to you and hopefully to me too!

Choppy,
-emo-
-hopeful-

Influence

The clock is ticking. Time is slipping away. It is due next week. No, I'm not talking about the end-term holidays. No, not yet. But more importantly, it's our education final countdown ( well, at least for this year. Lol. ). Don't tell me you don't know wad I'm talking about? It's the end-term exam of course! Anyway, as the end-term exam approaches just around the corner, I rolled the ball. My friends around wait in anticipation as they watch closely whether I shall succeed or fail miserably this time. Dong. The ball rolled into the drain again for god-knows-how-many consecutive times. I suck in bowling.

Ok, enough crapping, lol. Back to the main point for this post. As mentioned above, my school's end-term exam is starting next week ( Actually it started last week for the Pengajian Am paper but it was only 1 day so I don't think its counted as 'started' ). And we are having 1 whole week of holiday due to the PMR examination. Ya, I know, you might think we, lower 6 are very lucky. But think no further because although its the holidays, some of us had to come to school for extra classes. Zzzz. Well, for 6B2 and 6B4, we have to come to school on Monday, Wednesday and Friday, 8am to 11am to attend Maths extra classes conducted by Uncle Lim Cheng Lay. On Tuesday, some of us ( Club Presidents, Deputy and Secretary ) have to come to school too at 8.30am to do some kind of a survey for the PPD. And we have to wear our school uniforms for each day as usual like schooling days. Sad! So you see, my equation was right all along since 2 months ago,

Holiday = No Holiday

Haha, lame equation, I know. Nevertheless, its still very true for me. Anyway, as you can see, I don't really have much time to study for my end-term exam! So, I guess you are saying I must make use of all the time I have left right? Yap, I think so too.

So after a grueling extra class today, a few of my friends decided to go BOWLING at Klang Parade. I was like what the heck? Its less than 1 week till exam and they want to go bowling?! Well, so I decided to follow them there to eat McDonalds ( bah da bah bah i'm lovin it~ ) then I can walk home to study since I have no transport to go back home anyway. For your info, the people who went were Nicholas, Boon Kai, Chee Yee, Chung Chin, Chee Yong, Shin Yee ( the only girl, lol ), Sheng Jie, Soon Poi and Haresh.

When we were there, I was suddenly pulled into playing bowling. I have no idea how. So I guess fine then, 1 round wouldn't take too long and its been a long time since i last bowled. And then disaster struck. Soon Poi told me he booked 4 rounds because there was a promotion, 4 for RM 10. My jaw dropped and I stared at him ( Ok, this is exaggerated haha ). I mean 4 rounds?! My stomach is empty and my brain is empty and you want me to play 4 rounds?!

Back in those days in La Salle, 1 week before exam is like a holy week. After school, go back study. Nothing else. But I didn't know Kwang Hua people play bowling before exam? Lol. So, you see, I'm slowly being influenced by Kwang Hua people. I'm not saying its a bad influence or anything because I guess there are pros and cons of it. At least , I did have fun, lots of them. Haha. And I got to see Sau Seong, Mr chairman of High School Bowling Club who came later struts his stuff. The pose when he rolls the ball, so elegant and flexible. Lol. Makes us normal players feel noob. Haha.

Anyway, I think its time I REALLY start focusing on my studies before its too late because Chee Yee said reading Chemistry is like hell. And 1 more thing I had the worst nightmare today this afternoon when I was taking a nap, a 4 hour nap lol. I dreamt I didn't study anything for Chemistry and took the exam. It was so scary. My heart was pounding like crazy! Before you ask, sorry guys, I did not see or rather remember the questions. So, no soalan bocor. Haha. Darn it, why don't I have premonition skills. Sigh.

Well, I think I better start studying right now. Don't waste anymore time and this goes to all you lazy bums out there! Start reading before you regret! Lastly, I just want to say I love my friends. I wonder if they love me. Hmmm.....

Choppy,
-Wonder-
-Determined-
-Glad-

Cover

I have a confession to make. Do not be surprised or shock nor disbelief. It's true. I .... judge a person by his/her face as first impression. *Gasp*

Ok, I guess there's no need to over-react or make it such a big issue. It's just a little bad habit of mine. Well, who doesn't has bad habits?

Anyway, what I want to post here is that I realized recently I should really quit this habit because almost all my first impression on people really deviates from their true personalities. In the past, I had always make judgements on people based on their looks before I actually know them. For example, when I see a person with a cool ( cool as in ice cold ) face, I usually won't approach him/her and talk to that particular person because I'm afraid of being treated coldly and I'm not really an easy-talking person, if you know what I mean. So, it was kind of hard to make new friends back then.

But ever since I transfer in to High School Klang from Sekolah Tengku Ampuan Rahimah for my form 6 education, with a new environment and a whole new community, things began to change. I needed friends, which means adapting to the whole new culture of schools which were once aliens to me and learn to mix with a whole new bunch of people. I didn't have a choice. I was desperate for friends. Lol. How can Homo sapiens live without friends ?

So with my old bad habit, instantly, I started making personal judgements on people around me. Some were positive ones while a few were..not so positive ones. But then, I started mixing with all these new people and occasionally, I'm fortunate enough to see the true sides of them. ( Well, I'm not giving names here as to avoid any possible misunderstandings from friends that actually read my blog. Hee hee )

Anyway, It turns out that some of them were not like what I thought they were. By the way, when I say judgements, I do not just mean judgements on their attitude, but also on their academic. Ya, I know, it's a bad bad habit. Anyway, some of them revealed their true evil tails while some improvises my opinions on them. For example, many cool or quiet looking people turns out to be rather emo and also friendly at times. However, there were also friendly looking people that turns out rather cocky and arrogant. But then, you see, I must admit that some of my judgements are really wrong but there were also judgements where I really come close to their true personality. Nevertheless, it's still a bad habit.

In conclusion, I guess its really time for me to stop judging one person's personality based on their looks. Besides, who am I to judge another human ? Well, I'm glad I'm starting to let go of this habit and making more friends than I've ever made before. I hope nobody gets offended by this post, ya? It's just a tiny confession of mine and by posting it I'm trying to show my determination to get rid of it. I would also like to wish all my new friends made in High School Klang "Friends Forever", quoted from Kerry Seow from 6B2. Lol.

Very true indeed...

Choppy,
-Regretful-
-Determined-

IQ

"An intelligence quotient or, IQ is a score derived from one of several different standardized tests attempting to measure intelligence. IQ tests are used as predictors of educational achievement." - quoted from Wikipedia.

Ok, so my class had Pengajian Am lesson today and our teacher, Mr Amat Tarop decided to teach us, or rather gave us some exercises on Penyelesaian Masalah ( Problem Solving questions - mostly related to logic thinking and mathematics ) Everything went well at first, every question seemed easy until there was this particular question that struck me. I didn't know how to do it. Everybody did. The question goes something like this ( translated from Bahasa Malaysia ) :

5. Ramli bought an item worth RM20 from Ramlah's shop using a paper note worth RM100. Due to insufficient changes, Ramlah decided to head over to Rais's shop which is next to his to change the RM100 note. When Ramli left with the item and his change, Rais came over to Ramlah's shop and claimed that the Rm100 note is fake and demanded to change it back. How much did Ramlah lost ?
A. RM 80
B. RM100
C. RM 120
D. RM 200

Get the question? Anyway, I'm still figuring out the solution for this question. If u want to know the answer, you may scroll down to the end of this post ( just to avoid spoilers, lol ). Well, my friends tried very hard to explain it to me but I guess, it was to no avail as I am still completely blur with this question. I've listed out a few possible factors though to why I think I fail to understand this questions and it's solution,

1. Low IQ.

2. Listening to too many opinions on the solutions until there was no chance for me to digest it.

3. Bad business concept.

So you see, I wasn't really happy when I listed down the first factor. So, I decided to take a few random IQ test from the internet. Below are the results ( I took 3 in total )

1. I scored 131 in a test from www.iqtest.com

2. Scored a 110 in a test from www.highiqsociety.org/iq_tests/ ( a very tough one, recommend everyone to try it )

3. Scored another 131 in a test from tickle.com

So, I guess on average I scored a 124 for my IQ. That's not that bad, so why can't I still freaking understand the question?! Fine, I'll move on to the next factor. Well, not much to say about the 2nd factor, I guess I need time and lots lots of patience from my friend to teach me. Lol. And finally for the last factor, I think I agree the most with it because I'm not very good in this buy and sell thingy. I kept thinking when I sell off an item worth Rm 20, I'm losing Rm 80. Don't ask me why, I'm stupid. So, there goes my dream of becoming a multimillionaire. Sigh.

Oh well, I guess I need to read up on Pengajian Am now. My end-term exam starts this Thursday. Wish me luck! ^^

Answer : B RM 100

p.s. feel free to try and explain the question to me in the Cbox. I'm glad to listen. ^^

Choppy,
-Dilemma-

Happy Birthday

I would like to wish a Big Happy Happy Birthday to my Mother! It's her XXth Birthday today! ( Hey, a woman's age is forever a secret and that's what makes a woman ... woman I guess ^^. Hey, I know her age, mind you, I'm just not exposing it in the world wide web. Haha)

Actually I was planning to go to a western restaurant to celebrate my mom's birthday and you know, treat her a lil bit since its her special day and all. But this afternoon, my dad told me my relatives are going out for dinner with us too! So, I'm sorry to say that I don't have the financial ability to treat 10++ people to a western dinner. So, we ended up having a small close relative gathering dinner today at a nearby restaurant courtesy to my dad. Oh well, maybe next year ^^. Anyway, nothing special happened, I guess. Haha.

I know its pretty late to do this but, its the heart that counts right? Oh well, I guess its never too late to do this...

*runs off to hug mom*

Choppy,
-Grateful-