Thoughts

天黑黑 欲落雨

天黑黑 黑黑...

I'm home alone again today and its raining quite heavily outside...

Rain; I like it when its raining. It's always so peaceful and serene on rainy days. It's rather ironic but I do think that the rain provides a comforting silence for me. I can't really explain it, maybe its the constant rhythm of the rain drops or the silent breeze that accompanies it, it really does create a soothing environment perfect for thoughts.

More often than not, as I lie on my comfy bed listening to the soft thuds of the rain drops, my mind starts to wonder aimlessly. As my mind begins its journey from the past to the present and to the future, questions of all sorts begin to pop like mushrooms. Questions that are sometimes foolish, joyful, regrettable and many times haunting.

What if I didn't accept the PTS offer during Standard 3?
What if I had transferred to Kwang Hua during Form 1?
What if I were offered a scholarship after SPM?
What if I had stayed in STAR for Form 6?
What if I were sent to 6B1 on my 1st day in High School?
What if I had fail to be selected for IPHO?
What if I obtain a discouraging result for STPM and fails to enter any public Unievrsity?
What if I were a Christian, Muslim or any other religion?
What if I were dead?

I know it's pointless to wander on things that were done in the past and things in the future that only time will tell. But nevertheless, these 'what if' questions are always so alluring because it allows the mind to run free. Sigh, so many questions yet so limited answers...

下起雨 也要勇敢前进

我相信 一切都会平息

我现在 好想回家去...

Choppy,
-Wandering-

Self Reliance

I last heard this song almost 5 years ago. I only heard it once but I remembered it till today and I'm so lucky to be able to hear it again when I stumble upon it on Youtube. A short but very meaningful song.

By ourselves is evil done.
By ourselves we pain endure.
By ourselves we cease from wrong.
By ourselves become we pure.

No one saves us but ourselves.
No one can and no one may.
We ourselves must walk the path.
Buddhas merely show the way.

Choppy,
-Touched-

Excited

I'm always excited with things that are... not really exciting. I mean, I'm easily excited with things that does not amuse anyone else. And most of the time I don't even realize that I'm feeling excited until one of my friends ask me 'Why am I so excited?' Lol. Example of a few things that thrills me but never seem to amuse anyone else :

1. I recently met this boy that totally looks like a small kid during Orientation Week.It's obvious I'm referring to the guy in the middle right? Doesn't he just look like 12?! I got excited since I saw him on the first day of OW and I started going around telling everybody about this little boy. Lol. And he has got a funny name too, Lau Vern Tze ( Direct translation = Old Mosquito ) Lol. (Sorry Vern Tze if you are reading this but I don't mean to make fun of your name) Besides that, he also runs around the hall bare-footed because according to him, he can't wear socks because his leg will start to sweat and get itchy. So I'm always looking at this kid that runs around bare-footed, which is absolutely hilarious. Lol. I'm so glad to announce that I no longer look the most kid-ish in High School Klang.

But there's 1 thing that bugs me though... he's taller than me. Sigh.

2. 7-11 is coming to town! .... It's true, 7-11 is coming to Taman Berkeley! Boon Kai was fetching me to tuition yesterday and I suddenly saw a group of people hanging the 7-11 board on one of the empty shop lots. I was like so freaking excited because I would have never expected a 7-11 in Taman Berkeley. Then Boon Kai suddenly ask me 'Why am I so excited?' I had no idea how to answer, lol. I guess I expected 7-11 to be available only in urban areas, which means Berkeley is now officially advanced! But Taman Eng Aun has a 7-11 too ... hmm ...

3. I get excited each time I see a squirrel in High School, even though I've seen them before countless times before. I guess I'm the only student in High School to feel excited. But isn't it exciting to be able to see a squirrel in town? Who knows they might be the next Chipmunks .... cold.

So, you see my life is pretty exciting, well at least for me it is. Haha. Even typing this post on all these things excites me. Lol.

Choppy,
-Still Excited-

Experiments

Things that keep me entertained in the training camps in UKM besides watching tv and sleeping :

Finding the value of Planck's constant.

I got some stupid value that is way off the real value =.=

No idea what this experiment is about, lol

Calculating the value of Magnetic Braking Force

Something about Torque and Springs...lol

I think this has something to do with photoresistor...hmm

Something to do with refraction gratings

And the best was this levitating magnet!!

In conclusion, I am still freaking blur with all the experiments, which means I'm so not prepared for IPHO. But hey, when you get to play with experimens normally done by 2nd year degree students, who's complaining? Haha.

Choppy,

-Excited-

Next

Looking at the Lower 6 reminds me of the day when I first stepped into High School Klang, alone. I had no friends, no one to talk to in this Form 6 community so densely populated by Kwang Hua-ians. It was a totally different environment compared to La Salle. I was absolutely doubtful of my decision to transfer to High School from STAR during the first few weeks because I was so worried I would not blend in. I still remembered my first day where I lined up in the last row and the first few people who talked to me were Hock Song and Chen Hong. Haha. New faces, new language, and a whole new world so alien yet somehow so alluring.

But I have indeed come a long way since the fist day I stepped in. It maybe a mere 1 year period in High School but I feel that I've learned and gained so much. From MTE Telematch, MPPTE, Fiesta de Luna, Sports Day and recently OW, it has been a truly enjoyable roller coaster ride that I will never forget. And not to mention the friendship bond that were formed along the way. I'm glad I've met so many people who taught me so much and they definitely made an impact in my life. I maybe lonely 1 year ago but now I'm lucky to be surrounded by a circle of close friends that I can talk and laugh with.

It's sad to know that our time together will not last long, approximately 5 more months before we depart in our own way. Sigh, I guess history is going to repeat itself like it was in Form 5. But I'm glad I've walked this path with you guys and hope to cherish every moment of it while the road is still clear and wide. Thanks for making me who I am today.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. -The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost

Anyway, now that OW is over, I guess its all back to studies again. It felt like it was only few days ago when we were all so excited for OW but now its actually over. It's amazing how time flies in a blink of an eye. Oh well, what's next for us? Only time will tell...

Choppy,
-Wondering-