Hectic

Oh my god, I finally found time to actually post an entry! Hoorah! Life has never been busier for me since school started! I'ts really crazy and stressful at the same time. Anyway, I'm don't think I have anything significant to post about, but I'll just crap something out just to keep this blog 'so-called' alive. Anyway, this week is going to be as busy as usual, if not busier.

Things I have to get done:
- Prepare for a Maths spot-test on 'Integration', which apparently happens to be one of my weakest topics because I didn't finish the homework on that chapter. =P I can't flop it either because the subject teacher is my club's ex-teacher advisor. Don't want to spoil my image in front of him, if you know what I mean.
- Study for my Japanese Trial Exam on Sunday. We had a spot-test today and I did horribly! I can't imagine how will I do in the 'listening' test next week. It's probably going to be a disaster. Zz.
- Discuss with my Buddhist Society committee about activities to be held and conduct it on Friday.
- Do research on an activity that Majlis Tingkatan Enam (MTE) is up to. [Top Secret] Lol.

And in the meantime, I have to:
- Work part-time on Thursday and Friday [4-30pm to 10pm]
- Attend a St. John's Foot Drill Course on Saturday and then tuition in the afternoon. (There goes my Saturday, sigh....)
- Finish every homework.
- Squeeze in time to learn driving [I hope to get my 'P' before CNY >.<]

Cool, eh? I know this sounds crazy but hectic schedule is kind of fun sometimes! It keeps my adrenaline pumping like crazy! Anyway, I hope to get everything done as soon as possible. Hopefully, the 'Procrastinating' disease will not visit me anytime soon. Hopefully too, I will not break down emotionally or physically...I'm a survivor!

I'm a survivor ,
I'm not gonna give up ,
I'm not gon' stop ,
I'm gonna work harder ,
I'm a survivor ,
I'm gonna make it ,
I will survive ,
Keep on survivin' ,

Choppy,

-Determined to survive-

总在我身旁

Ok, as stated in my last post, here's the lyrics :

我从不相信自己
也无法面对现实
当生命失去了光
我就失去了方向

前路依然很模糊
要挣脱许多束缚
你让我依靠让我坚强
你守护在我身旁

每当我需要依靠你
你一定会在这里
有你的地方就有阳光
你总会在我身旁

当我还不够坚强(还不够坚强)
推翻命运的围墙
你还是和我在一起
给我无限的勇气

路依然走得困难
当我变成了负担
你依然把我紧紧拉着
我就是最幸福的

每当我需要依靠你
你一定会在这里
有你的地方就有阳光
你总会在我身旁

每当我需要依靠你
你一定会在这里(就在这里)
有你的地方就有阳光
你总会在我身旁(总会在我身旁)

我需要依靠你(要依靠你)
你就在这里
有你的地方就有阳光
你总会在我身旁

I'm sorry that I can't translate the lyrics to any of you 'bananas' out there but the lyrics is pretty simple actually. That's the amazing part of it; simple words, touching lyrics, beautiful melody, wonderful singers, what more can you ask for?

One question though, will I ever find my .... '你' ?

Choppy,
-Emo-fied-

Searching

I'm so sorry I havn't been posting lately because things are kind of messy recently. Hmm, maybe I should write it in a song. Here goes,

This is 10 percent bored, 20 percent lazy
15 percent busy to post any entry
5 percent messy, 50 percent delay
And 100 percent procrastination throughout the day

Hey, I did it! Hmm, I could might as well just take over Fort Minor.....just kidding! ( Dear Fort Minor fans, don't stare at me like that ) Well, that probably sums it up the condition of my life now too. I'm feeling so tensed up due to many many reasons. Do you ever feel like there is so much to do that you don't even know where to begin with? And finally you ended up doing nothing besides .... well, watching tv, sleeping, eating and going online for nothing? No? Fine, I guess its just me then...I need help! I need serious motivation to keep me going...I miss 5ST1 where the competition is always stiff and everyone is so worried about not finishing their homework. Ya, I know that souns pathetic... but deep down inside I really miss the environment! Its always the competition - mostly by Paul, Choo and Kar Hing - that keeps me motivated. And not forgetting Pn Yong that gives us stress every week with tonnes of homework. Gosh, I can't believe I'm saying this but I really miss her! I guess stress sometimes do help especially towards lazy people like me.... but now that everything is so peaceful, it's really weird but I must admit I'm rotting. As ironic as it sounds, that is the truth deep down from my heart. Sigh, nostalgia....

Anyway, more on stress next time because I don't plan to post a long entry today as there is school tomorrow ( I always say this but usually end up crapping a lot, lol so please bear with me dear readers ) Let's see...what else to talk about? O yah, recently I'm seriously addicted to a Taiwan singing competition called One Million Star a.k.a. 超級星光大道. I've learned a lot of things from this show, not just singing but also friendship and personalities. Well, maybe I'll post a special entry on this show some other time because as I said, I'm trying to keep this post short. Lol.

But there is this song that I must recommend to everybody here entitled 总在我身旁, which is sang by the top 10 contestants of the show. The song is so touching that I literally shed tears when I heard it the first time. I can sense a lot of jeers now.... what is wrong with a guy crying anyway? Bah, I don't care what people say about guys who cry being sissy because crying is just a feeling that every human have! I don't see anything wrong with crying to express my feelings. It's not like I'm crying for the wrong purpose anyway...when you are touched, you cry, as simple as that. What can I say? I'm a sensitive guy that is filled with emotions =). And don't you ever feel like you are instantly clicked with a song the first time you heard it? Well, apparently, this is one of those songs for me.The lyrics and melody is just so beautifully written. Anyway, I've already made it as my background song. Hope you guys will like it too. ^^ I'll just post the lyrics in the next post.

Finally, all I want to say is I've been doing some soul-searching lately. Well I'm not sure if it's considered 'soul-searching' but I've been thinking a lot lately before I go to sleep ( probably one of the reasons why I'm lacing of sleep ) Just general questions like what I'm going to be when I grow up or how is my life going to be like in the future. Don't get me wrong, I'm actually mature enough to not be thinking things like 'what to buy when I get rich someday' but rather questions that are more realistic. The process is really stressful and I try not to think about it but it just comes naturally all the time. I'll post on it if I actually succeed in it. In the meantime, I'll try my very best to stay relax and just have fun. Besides, that's what life is all about right? Having fun? Or is it? The human mind is really complex... well at least mine is.

Choppy,
-Nostalgic-
-Brainstorming-
-Slightly emo-fied-